SL and sex – part 2
Can’t say nobody warned me.. can’t say i didn’t know.. and yet i walked right into it. What the hell am i talking about.. yes.. i am talking about caring for someone and like to be with him or her. It is hard to maintain relations in RL, it’s a lot of work… Gosh, yes! a lot of work: i have to be nice 24/7, do a little RP, be naughty, be a sweet and charming good girl for my boyfriend…hehe..
So in SL where time flies, its even harder. You wanna know what happend to me? I met a guy, cool one. The only problem was i started to like him. So when it comes to feelings like caring there is no difference between RL and SL. We are all people and all have feelings. We all can be hurt. Maybe even more in SL due to the intense relations we can have here. I talked about it with a friend and he has a good theory about this. Because you can’t see each other like you would in RL, you see the avatar someone created, you focus on the vibes someone sends, the words they use, their voice (when you use voice). The feelings someone gives you can be really powerful. That’s a very good thing but it can also mean you get hurt. People’s dark side (sorta like wrong and right.. gosh i start to talk like a preacher) even triples in SL due to no boundaries and anonymity. Nobody knows who you are, so you can do it all and be it all. That also creates unlimited freedom, to me the main reason i am in SL.
So what happened? He lied.. that’s what happened. So that’s the end of a weird but very cool time. This guy was really something and that’s the reason i replied to his IM in the first place. Usually i only say hi and bye, but this time it was different. I think there’s a reason why you meet people. It’s all about learning and that’s what i am trying to do. So after i lost my temper and kicked him out of my friendslist (blushes) i realized this was not the way to deal with it. Communication is so hard! If only i told him he didn’t have to lie but just tell me he was busy or whatever. But if your friend doesn’t know what you see as ‘normal behavour’ how can you expect him or her to act as you would like? OMG.. is this really me pouring out my heart on the world wide web? Ina hides under a rock until the storm blows over and she meets a tall, dark, super sexy and handsome man.. Gosh NOOOOO, not again… no no no… no more sorta bf, lovers… oi boi… here we go again..
Nah, going to an opening of a samurai tourney this evening, i will behave 